pregnant.

i've been feeling like having a baby. everyday i wake up and just want to have a child. i can't help it. my period was late this week and I was so happy. I even prayed about it. but when i got my period this morning i was disappointed. i even said to myself why can't i just be pregnant. i remember in the past thinking i was pregnant. broken condoms and fearing that it would happen but never did. for a minute i thought i couldn't have kids. even my ex-bf was like "damn ur not pregnant!?!" he even said to me one time, "maybe u can't have kids..." i really pray thats not the case. but i really feel to just ...iono. have a family. i am so ready. i can feel it.

whats good...

hey, whats up. i've been just living life. working. making and spending money. love my fam, love my man. loving life with all the good and the bad. had a great xmas and a wonderful time just chillaxin. hi.

its so cold.

my heart beats to the 808's you represent.
ur voice cries out to me through song.
the melody rising and falling.
i can hear ur sweet voice through my heart.
the strings and orchestra are calling me to ring ur doorbell.
to the right to the right.
all my things are to the right.
i remember walking in.
i remember laying down with you.
i remember ur skin color.
ur smell and miami bass beats against my inner.
damn i miss u.
it's cold outside.