i thought of.

i thought of alot of things yesterday and I kept trying to get them out of my head. thoughts of past deeds and recent past mistakes. do i regret? in some cases i do. i wish i waited to be with him and i wish i had never cheated. i wish of alot of things. if only i knew then what i know now. life is a balance. i guess everything was meant to happen so that a domino might fall and catch on to another. iono. i wonder what my next domino is. pregnancy? marriage? better job? i don't like to gamble but maybe i thhink i should.

malikie

i look at him and i think , where am i going to be when he grows up. will he remember all that i did for him? will he know that i love him very much? like he is my own. he's going to be 9 months pretty soon and he's like another responsibility. i layed with him last night and watched him sleep and i kept thinking...thinking about having my own children one day. what would they look like and do? iono. sweet malikie this is for you.

little explaination.

only reason why i started this blog is to keep a record of my thoughts for myself. if people comment its only because they feel moved to. sometimes my words are confusing so please, read it over and over and you will get it. i am not afraid of judgment. i have had it before. enjoy.